Specifically, conventions.

I just registered for a convention that I've been going to for about 6 years now and it's the first time I've felt slightly dejected. 5 out of the 6 years I've been able to bring together a group of pals to go and we'd split the cost of a hotel room. The convention is only about 20 minutes away from where we live but it's just so much more convenient having a place to crash and use the bathroom without waiting in line. Plus it was our one "crazy" event we did (as we're all fairly not crazy). The year we didn't do this was pretty annoying and we missed out on a lot. This year will be even worse than that year now.

Pretty much everyone I used to go with is either broke as hell or too busy to go. I may end up going with totally other people for a truncated experience which, while I'm still excited for, is leaving me a bit hollow. It's bittersweet to have a tradition come to such an abrupt end. The worst part is that money is pretty much the sole reason stopping most of us. Either some people can't afford it at all while others are busy working. Our mini vacation's gone.

I'm going to another convention in July and already have a room booked for that since part of my Christmas haul was a partial payment for that room. So while that one is likely safe this other one just feels so empty all of a sudden. I feel bad for even feeling bad because it seems so silly. Though when it's something you look forward to like a kid looks forward to Christmas it's hard to realize that it's just not gonna be the same.